I always seems to stress out the most over what choices I make. I'm so worried that I'll end up making the wrong choice and ruining whatever great experiences were waiting for me had I made another decision. In the current case, I'm worried about what classes I'm taking. I'm definitely in three classes: Korean, korean cultural heritage, and Diversity in Language and Culture. I think those three classes will be a good balance and a moderate and manageable workload.
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But there's two other classes that I could take as well.... one on The World and Christianity, and another on Korean Aesthetics. I ended up skipping going to World and Christianity, which had the first intro class today, because I think it's the type of class I can get at Beloit or through other means,and it seemed like it focused on a more academic understanding of the religion. Plus I figure, hey, most of the reading is from the Bible anyway, and I kept the course syllabus so I can do some self study too, and I don't want to overburden myself with the workload that it seems to have. But then...I think, if I had gone, and if I did sign up for it, what kind of experiences would I have had? Would I have made close friends? Would anything about my faith have changed? Would I simply have been stressing out more because of the workload that was not my first priority in comparison to more important classes?
And Korean Aesthetics is on Thursday, and I'm still debating if I should go to it and see what it's like or not... I suppose I should... But then I'm afraid I'll like it too much and then definitely have a bigger workload! And I definitely don't want too much work this semester because I REALLY want to concentrate on learning Korean, and I don't want to fall behind on it or devote less attention to it than it deserves.
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I'm so conflicted.....
p.s. I suppose I could always go to the wednesday class for the world and christianity class...and tell the prof that I didn't know if I wanted to take it or not... -__- I do not like being indecisive.
P.s.s. I've thought about it a bit, and I think I'm ok with the decision I made. That is, not going to world and christianity, and visiting korean aesthetics to see if its something I'd like... but still, being indecisive and dwelling on my choices SUCKS :(
I'm gonna go eat now, that should cheer me up.
It sounds like you've figured it out yourself--that you COULD take that kind of religious studies class at Beloit! And now you have the syllabus so you can self-study. sounds like you have friends already, too--so no need to worry!! Thinking about you and LOVING reading your blog! And all the food pics! Lots of love and prayers! :)
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